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Related: Editorials & Other Articles, Issue Forums, Alliance Forums, Region ForumsToday would have been our 15th wedding anniversary
I realize I posted something similar last year on April Fools Day. I'll try not to do it every year, I promise. Still, it has been almost five years since Ginny's passing.
It has gotten easier. I still cry sometimes, but I came to a realization about something. For the longest time, it felt like my heart had a chunk ripped out of it, a piece that Ginny took with her to the grave. Then I realized that on those days when I miss her the most, I can feel her deep in my chest. She left a little piece of her heart inside me to replace the part of me that she took with her.
Somewhere out there, she's waiting for me.
Oh God, here go the tears again. Pictures!
City Lights
(25,171 posts)sinkingfeeling
(51,482 posts)herding cats
(19,568 posts)hobbit709
(41,694 posts)pnwmom
(109,009 posts)derby378
(30,252 posts)She's beautiful. Did you two get married at that restaurant?
If I ever run into you, remind me to buy you a beer.
hobbit709
(41,694 posts)We called the Jerry Garcia Memorial Wedding-everyone had to wear tie-dye.
If you get to Austin you're welcome to call me any time.
NikolaC
(1,276 posts)You were blessed to have wonderful people in your lives and I wish you both the best and healing.
City Lights
(25,171 posts)panader0
(25,816 posts)Sissyk
(12,665 posts)What a great looking couple.
staggerleem
(469 posts)It's coming on 14 years now since my wife and I lost our only child, four weeks shy of his 20th birthday, in an accident at a waterfall. Hobbit, you'd likely be interested to know that we'd taken Alex to see the Grateful Dead over 100 times in his sweet, short life.
One never really recovers from this kind of loss. You learn to live with it, you build walls to hide the pain behind, and you somehow find ways to wait until you're in a "safe" place before you start to cry. You sometimes don't know what's going to set you off, though. That Peter Pan remake they did on NBC, with Brian Williams' daughter had me blubbering like a 4-year old whose favorite toy broke - I guess because our son found the one & only way to NOT grow up.
So ... No, it does NOT get better - but it DOES get a bit easier.
Scarsdale
(9,426 posts)I lost my younger son 4 1/2 years ago, right after his 45th birthday. This is NOT supposed to be the order of things. Parents are supposed to leave first. Big gaping hole in my heart. I understand the loss. We have to learn to live with the loss, but it is not easy by any means. Condolences.
calimary
(81,527 posts)Cherish those happy times, and all those smiles. Thank you for sharing these photos - what a WUNNNNNNNNNNderful memory! My condolences.
hrmjustin
(71,265 posts)pnwmom
(109,009 posts)lame54
(35,331 posts)MuseRider
(34,135 posts)We had some fun discussions about birds and other animals. She felt like a friend from the beginning. I missed her in Crawford, I wish I could have been there at the same time she was there.
Be easy with yourself. Your sorrow is just a measure of the love the two of you shared. You are very lucky to have had that but it is oh so hard to miss it.
riderinthestorm
(23,272 posts)yeoman6987
(14,449 posts)I missed the OP last year and am so humbled that you shared these with us. I hope you post them as often as you feel. So sorry for your loss.
derby378
(30,252 posts)This was back in April 2005. For a long time, I was afraid this photo had been lost forever.
Sissyk
(12,665 posts)I'm glad it was found.
fizzgig
(24,146 posts)i'm glad you found it.
Faygo Kid
(21,478 posts)I can only recall Leonard Nimoy's final tweet: "A life is like a garden. Perfect moments can be had, but not preserved, except in memory."
Hekate
(90,867 posts)LongTomH
(8,636 posts)I will never forget her, and I know you will never forget Ginny!
daleanime
(17,796 posts)Dont call me Shirley
(10,998 posts)Derby
Love is infinite. Love is always present.
PDittie
(8,322 posts)She saw that I was flush red, was worried about me in the heat, called over one of the roving medical staff to check on me. I was fine but I did not know that she did that for some time after. (You may recall that was an eventful summer; Katrina hit New Orleans a week later, and Rita hit SE Texas a week after that, so things got a little confuzzled. Not sure if I ever properly thanked her for her concern.)
She was one of kind, and she was yours all yours, to paraphrase Jacob Lattimore. A hug and a blessing to you.
derby378
(30,252 posts)I definitely remember the heat on that day. I previously arranged for a large box of Polar Paks to be shipped to the Crawford Peace House, and it looks like they arrived none too soon, because Ginny was out at Camp Casey distributing Polar Paks and other aid to anyone close to heatstroke. I didn't remember you being one of her "patients," but that's just the type of person Ginny was. She was kind, selfless, and a wonderful wife.
Thank you.
panader0
(25,816 posts)They have been gone for a while--They used to kid each other that the marriage was suspect because of the date.
So sorry for your loss.
hobbit709
(41,694 posts)The other option was Halloween.
Sissyk
(12,665 posts)What a beautiful couple you make!
Hanging on to those good memories and wonderful pictures are what you can do.
And if next year you need to do this again? Go right ahead. We'll be here.
peacefreak
(2,939 posts)To have had such a lovely lady. One look at her & you can see how much love she had for those around her. We never know what the future will bring. Cherish her memory. Peace.
awoke_in_2003
(34,582 posts)Sometimes you have to get it out.
derby378
(30,252 posts)I'm at work, so I can't type too much here, but each and every one of you is dearly appreciated.
Wilms
(26,795 posts)That bit about your chest...I think I know what you mean. It's comforting to hear about someone else getting that sensation.
InAbLuEsTaTe
(24,123 posts)Some never do, so try also to rejoice in knowing that. That might seem somewhat strange, but that's what helps get me through times when my loss seems so overwhelming. Take care.
handmade34
(22,758 posts)AtomicKitten
(46,585 posts)thanks for sharing
dorkzilla
(5,141 posts)She lives on as long as you and others that loved her keep her memory alive.
Grief is the risk we all take when we love.
irisblue
(33,037 posts)thank you for sharing her with us
Worried senior
(1,328 posts)is very evident and your tribute to her is wonderful.
Skidmore
(37,364 posts)She lives as long as you can share the memory.
Diclotican
(5,095 posts)derby378
I am deeply sorry for your loss - and I do believe she is out there - waiting for you when it is your time - It looks like you loved her - and she did it to you. That is something that is not often the case allways...
I wish I could do something to comfort you - sadly I just have this loosely words - and that is not much to talk about I'm afraid... Wish you the best - and I do hope you can be given some comfort even if you miss here deeply..
Diclotican
raven mad
(4,940 posts)The beauty of memories can heal.
longship
(40,416 posts)Pretty damned cool woman.
Peace be to you. No doubt you will keep up the fight.
Alkene
(752 posts)I lost my Beverly 5 years ago last August, just short of 20 years married.
Don't really care much for summer anymore.
Each anniversary is a challenge, and I hope you can get through this one okay.
calimary
(81,527 posts)It takes as long as it takes. My best friend lost her husband 20 years ago. The hurt is still there today.
sueh
(1,829 posts)Cha
(297,816 posts)chillfactor
(7,584 posts)the missing him never has gone away...my thoughts, my prayers are with you............
calimary
(81,527 posts)Clearly she had many here who loved her, too. Some of these posts remind me of one of my favorites - Skittles, who once sent comfort to a grieving fellow DUer and reassured - "someone's always here."
Don't feel reluctant to post about this whenever you need to. Your notes about her are so incredibly beautiful.
"For the longest time, it felt like my heart had a chunk ripped out of it, a piece that Ginny took with her to the grave. Then I realized that on those days when I miss her the most, I can feel her deep in my chest. She left a little piece of her heart inside me to replace the part of me that she took with her."
I copied it so I'd always be able to find it. Very loving testament to her, your sharing these thoughts.
merrily
(45,251 posts)Ginny was and is by you. Each of you was fortunate to find each other and both of you were fortunate to have what you had.
Don't fight the tears. I find them cleansing and cathartic. After they stop, I am tired but more peaceful.
Sending love to you and your lovely Ginny.
mahina
(17,715 posts)Lucky you, to have loved. So sorry. Aloha.
applegrove
(118,845 posts)She looks lovely.
what a beautiful spirit!....
you have an awesome reunion coming....
much love!
Democat
(11,617 posts)Wishing you the best.
brush
(53,925 posts)I lost my wife in July.
It's the most horrible thing, nothing prepares you for it.
Please know that there are others that feel the same way and feel for you as well.
H2O Man
(73,637 posts)by Jimi Hendrix
Angel came down from heaven yesterday
She stayed with me just long enough to rescue me
And she told me a story yesterday,
About the sweet love between the moon and the deep blue sea
And then she spread her wings high over me
She said she's gonna come back tomorrow
And I said, "Fly on my sweet angel,
Fly on through the sky,
Fly on my sweet angel,
Tomorrow I'm gonna be by your side"
Sure enough this morning came unto me
Silver wings silhouetted against the child's sunrise
And my angel she said unto me,
"Today is the day for you to rise
Take my hand, you're gonna be my man,
You're gonna rise"
And then she took high over yonder
And I said, "Fly on my sweet angel,
Fly on through the sky,
Fly on my sweet angel,
Forever I will be by your side"
Brother Derby: I've spent a day, trying to come up with words. I couldn't come up with any of my own. So I did the next better thing, I suppose. The pain of separation is always highlighted on anniversaries. And, as this beautiful OP/thread shows, there are a lot of us here, to be with you, on these anniversaries. Peace unto you, my Friend. -- H2O Man
riqster
(13,986 posts)Voice for Peace
(13,141 posts)This is one of the sweetest metaphors I have ever heard.
How the moon was once part of the earth; and now it's not;
but it's not gone, it's still there, affecting our world. short
video.