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AZLD4Candidate

(5,848 posts) Sun Apr 28, 2024, 03:06 AM Apr 28

i am a bipolar, bpd suffering recovering alcoholic in the grips of a deep depression and

my old crutch is calling to me. Right now, the monster has complete control of me and I am too weak to fight the call.

Everything it's telling me is right.

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i am a bipolar, bpd suffering recovering alcoholic in the grips of a deep depression and (Original Post) AZLD4Candidate Apr 28 OP

Lace your fucking shoelaces LeonidPlanck Apr 28 #1

I call friends and watch a favorite movie Tetrachloride Apr 28 #2

Put down my crutch 34 years ago. multigraincracker Apr 28 #3

Pick up that 50 pound phone orangecrush Apr 28 #4

Babe not tonight. Not to night irisblue Apr 28 #5

Sometimes "a day at a time " is way too long questionseverything Apr 28 #6

I'm a recovering opiate addict Elessar Zappa Apr 28 #7

I am with you. AloeVera Apr 28 #8

Borderline is terrible XanaDUer2 Apr 28 #9

Stay the course. There will come a day when it is no longer a struggle. Chainfire Apr 28 #10

LeonidPlanck

(89 posts)

1. Lace your fucking shoelaces

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 03:11 AM

Apr 28

And go run a 13.1. I guarantee when you’re done you’ll not have the same desires.

Best and good luck!

Tetrachloride

(7,899 posts)

2. I call friends and watch a favorite movie

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 03:14 AM

Apr 28

we are with you

multigraincracker

(32,749 posts)

3. Put down my crutch 34 years ago.

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 03:25 AM

Apr 28

When ever those feelings return, I get moving and get busy. Walk, jog and exercise. Get all of those jobs done that are waiting on me. What ever is getting me down is nothing compared to those dark days.
Good luck with your struggles.

orangecrush

(19,662 posts)

4. Pick up that 50 pound phone

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 04:10 AM

Apr 28

And call your sponsor or a trusted friend in recovery.

You will thank yourself later.

irisblue

(33,053 posts)

5. Babe not tonight. Not to night

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 04:42 AM

Apr 28

questionseverything

(9,666 posts)

6. Sometimes "a day at a time " is way too long

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 07:14 AM

Apr 28

For the next half hour find something clean and sober to do. Write, draw, exercise, dance, anything…

Your dreams are on the verge of coming true, stay strong

If you don’t have a sponsor, get one

👋

Elessar Zappa

(14,131 posts)

7. I'm a recovering opiate addict

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 09:42 AM

Apr 28

and when the cravings come, I just have to distract myself until it passes.I know it’s easier said than done. I don’t know if you’re into video games but I find playing a good one works well against the cravings. Best of luck to you and know we’re here for you.

AloeVera

(1,024 posts)

8. I am with you.

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 10:50 AM

Apr 28

I know how it is. Reach out for help. There are times we can't do this alone. Being in nature has always helped me too. Be well. Sobriety is so worth it!

XanaDUer2

(10,836 posts)

9. Borderline is terrible

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 11:06 AM

Apr 28

Reach out for help. Can you get a sponser?

Chainfire

(17,757 posts)

10. Stay the course. There will come a day when it is no longer a struggle.

Reply to AZLD4Candidate (Original post)

Sun Apr 28, 2024, 11:36 AM

Apr 28

25+ years sober for me and I am probably still head of my liftime consumption quota.

All of the reasons that you decide to quit are still in play. Don't give up.

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