I bit the bullet and reached out UPDATE!
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cousin PMd me and said text him my number, so I did. He finally texted me. I quickly filled him inon my upcoming tests, he was sympathetic and said let him know. So, now I have his number if there's an emergency. Thanks everyone for reading and weighing in. It's a start!
My other cousin visited yesterday, and her input about the being-ignored-by-a-relative issue was that his father, my moms brother, left their lives early on and their much closer to their mothers family. Not sure why that would effect us trying to get closer now? So, I just PMd him asking for his number, and that I'm going in for diagnostic tests.
And that's going to be it for me. He'll either respond or not, if he sees the message. My cousin, female, said the most we can hope for would be a lunch with him. No in-house visiting him and his family. I thought about this input. I think she's right. So, I reached out, need to let go of my happy-family-reunion fantasies.
He has a large house on The Island, btw. He's. Not in a 1-room shack. But I'm not pushing anymore. If I do have serious health issues, I may not even share them with him at this point. Oh, he'll probably be sad, but I'm kinda over it. My fantasies are just that I realize
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Knowing can be half the battle. 
you're on the other side of the country!
You can message me anytime. I can be a part of your virtual family. 
I come from a big family, but have never really been supported, in fact have been attacked over and over again. That has slowed down with the passing of our Mom, but it's still there - childhood PTSD - continued abusive patterns. 3 are very wealthy, while I am trying to get disability. My lawyers are on it. My sweetheart takes care of me, but we have to borrow money. I suppose I should sell some art.
