Reply #48: I was anorexic for years and years [View All]

And would probably still be considered anorexic by many -- I prefer to think positive and not say "once an anorexic, always an anorexic". I ended up in the hospital a few times and was sent to different eating disorder specialists. I met other anorexics/bulimics. There are a million different reasons for/causes of/factors leading to (take your pick) anorexia. Me? It started out being about control mixed with wanting to suppress anything that made me (having been raped) "feel sexual"-- breasts, menstruation, etc. It is all very complex. Of course being thin played into that, but that became more of an obsession later on. For some people it is about attention. For some it is about losing weight and then becomes an obsession. It varies greatly.

No, I didn't read the article. I've read enough of them and every one says something different. Like I was told by the doctors I saw, there are no "experts" because it is so complex. You can really only get help if you want help. I didn't want help for years -- then I would have lost control.