Reply #33: I felt like I needed to respond to this, BBB [View All]

Because of what you said about the grief counseling. Don't worry about that NOW, you're not ready for it and it's not going to help now. Please look into it later because it can be quite helpful. When you made that comparison to an unruly child, and trying to tame it, I knew exactly what you meant, and you're just not ready for that yet. Let yourself grieve, and be pissed off at the world, and God, if you believe in him.

My friends and some of my family tried to push me into it and it only made me retreat further into myself instead. I felt as though they didn't want to deal with my grief, so I learned to put on a happy face, pushed the sadness and pain I felt way down deep, and tried to move on. The grief counseling can wait, but please don't go the route I did and go into denial.

There are no easy answers here, BBB. It's a long hard road and that old cliche of one day at a time truly does apply here. I've said it before, and I mean it... if you ever need anything or just someone to talk to, PM me anytime, okay? :hug: