Reply #24: No, I don't loathe you [View All]

and I actually agree with you. However, I've had the depression both during good control and not-good control. I've had the fatigue longer than the diabetes. I was diagnosed with fibro back in 1993, a date that predates diabetes by 6 years, and was already pretty much apparent even years before that. AOD didn't show up until 1999, and then it followed a dramatic upswing in my cholesterol, which precipitated the heart attacks. And my mom was diabetic, so I often checked my levels on her meter, so I know almost exactly the dates!

And as an overweight woman, one of the chief problems was always trying to lose weight. So it's always amusing to me to see doctors insist that you get on a medication which actually PUTS WEIGHT ON YOU. I've lost over 30 lbs since about Febrary, and regardless of how it came off, I don't intend to put it back on!

I research every prescription that goes into my body. Some have such undesirable side effects that I won't take them, and I don't care who knows it. One that I am currently living with is an anti-depressant that has altered my sense of smell to the point where I get nauseous from the smell of certain foods and other items, and others where they don't taste anywhere near what they're supposed to taste like. But I would rather live with that side effect than deal with a major depression without some medication assistance. And we've tried four different ADs with little to no effect.

I even indulged my former resident--she put me on Actos, and my weight went up 20 lbs!! Talk about a setback. And my levels remained high without letting up at all. So it's not like I'm not willing to make changes, because I have and will. But I KNOW what the effects are of the drug they want to try and I won't do it anymore.