Reply #9: Thanks man, helping you in any regard to any extent is my pleasure. [View All]

And yes, I suppose that like attracts like, and the only way for me to rise above it is to not be it. I take responsibility for my own bad behavior, in self-defense due to horrible vulnerability or not. The vulnerability is what is healing, and I'm doing what I can regarding amends for the intentional problems I've caused.

Even being yelled at as a child was cause for massive pain and thus, extreme insecurity and self-dislike at not being able to do anything about it. Now I've found the methods to do something about it and it's working so well. Soon, I will not be engaged in arguments at all, but will just laugh at bullshit and taunts. It's harder in person but I'm getting there quickly.

Don't get me wrong, I'm quite excited about this growth. I'm not a stuttering wreck. I'm merely lamenting the negative behaviour of others who do not understand that it causes them trouble, as well as myself.

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