Reply #88: I hate to have to do this, but feel I must. I need light & prayers. [View All]

In the last month, I have lost all feeling in my legs THREE times, for several minutes each. My doctor has put me through several tests; MRI, carotid ultra-sounds and a cardiac stress test. The MRI showed narrowing of the arteries, suggesting a possible impending stroke, but the carotid ultra-sound was normal. So unless it's my heart now - I've had to re-schedule the stress test twice - it appears I may have MS, which has been undiagnosed for over FIFTEEN YEARS!!! This, despite the fact that my eye troubles - confined to one eye, and my bladder problems - chronic for FIFTEEN YEARS have pointed to MS all along!!!
I'm scared, upset, worried, pissed and just coming out of the worst case of flu I've had in two decades - the "perfect condition" for a stress test. :sarcasm:
The Doctor says she won't "consider testing for MS" until she's ruled out the possibility of heart problems, even though all my other symptoms ADD UP to MS. I don't know enough about MS to challenge her, even though MS was considered a strong possibility after a collapse I had many years ago by the best doctor I ever had. No other doctor has even considered it a possibility, just continued to treat each symptom seperately, as though they were unrelated to ANYTHING. She agrees that it IS a strong possibility, but insists there is no hurry IF it is MS, despite the fact that I am losing the feeling in my legs.
Right now, I'm trying not to cry my eyes out because when it happens I am walking - and then BOOM! no feeling in the legs at all, the brain goes mushy, then into panic mode. I grasp at the walls, only to have to throw myself at the wall to slow my fall. Believe me - this is every bit as frightening as facing down a crazy man pointing a gun in my face, which I've done.
My stress test is next Friday, and I see her the following Monday, so I won't know anything until then, at the earliest. Until then, I'm staying close to home, lest this happen in public, which would embarrass me no end. Right now, I feel like there's a knife in my lowest lumbar vertabrae, which makes movement unpleasant, to say the least.
So, I ask for your light and prayers that WHATEVER is causing my symptoms be found, a correct diagnosis be made and that they tell me WHAT IT IS. Thank you ALL, I love you ALL dearly - I just didn't know where else to turn - my family is convinced that I am made of solid steel, but right now...I've never been so scared.

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NB