Alienation, etc. [View All]

I was raised in a very strongly Jewish household - moderately religious (at least when I was younger), very strongly culturally involved. I live in a city with a very large and yet tight knit Jewish community, and yet I feel as if I've never actually been part of it.

I must admit, I don't really believe in the Jewish religion per se. I mean, I'm not even a monotheist, Spiritually, I'm into Celtic Paganism, and a little bit of Buddhism.

Also, I feel kind of alienated by the community. I went to a very religious Hebrew school (because it was only a few blocks from my house), where I was basically told that everything I believed was wrong. When I cam out as queer, I even felt more alienated, because in the circles my family hangs out with, marrying and having a nice Jewish family is everything.

I guess I've found a community now, but it's not the Jewish one... I know a great community of queer/feminist activists, but I still feel like I left something behind.

Anyone else experienced this?

(And please, nobody flame me for this. It was really hard to write)