Reply #38: and you're not firightened? [View All]

maybe 12 hours wasn't long enough? I did 6 years with my Dad. 1.5 years with my favorite aunt (we were close) and 3 years with a dear friend. Long. Painful. Incidently, all of these people were in favor of taking the magic pill when the time came. Only one did. The other two had lost their minds in the sense they thought they were perfectly fine. My dear sweet dad had said he wanted to end it when it got bad (as so many of us do) but when it got bad, my mom tried to talk to him about it. He was so out of it he thought all he needed was a nap and he would be fine. He thought my mom nuts to have brought it up.

Even the short ones, you never know. My best friend was found dead in her bed age 42. No illness. Never could find a cause of death. But her husband was out of town on business and she was sleeping alone and I wonder if she was awake and knew what was happening, and I worry that she was scared especially because she was alone. Even if there was no physical pain, knowing I will never see my son's smiling face again is very painful.

Scares me plenty (I'd say "to death" but...well...you know.)