Cant get her off my mind and the stupid thing is i may never see her again

man, love's a bitch. its possible i might see her tommorrow... but then again, i might not. hopefully i can set it straight.

shoulda, coulda, woulda...

god why do i always do this to myself, i lose a good thing to inaction... whats my fucking problem? im so pissed at myself right now.

nevermind me feeling sorry for myself... ive just fucked up, again. as always

-LK

been there, done that. Man am I glad I'm married. Hang tough, you always get another chance (although it's not always when you want it)...

:)

thanks for the encouragement.

-LK

Hey, man I went through this once. They'll be others. But if you're as lame as me you won't go anywhere with them either.... :-)

it was something like "Love Stories" or something.... anyway, a friend loaned it to me, and though I was skeptical, I read it. What I loved about it was that the true stories included in it had such a variety of of scenarios.... from lifelong love to "I saw her as the train went by, and I never forgot her." The premise of the book was that every moment of love we ever have in our life is a learning experience, and a part of who we become. Whether it was a one-night-stand, or admiration from afar, every relationship is a part of us forever.

So, whether or not you ever solve the "woulda coulda shoulda," incorporate what you learned from the experience into yourself, and she will always be a part of you.

the fact that this is a love is a learning expierence is an understatement, nothing else can cause such pain and such happiness, for some reason its what most of us seek to validate ourselves and our self worth, ive had pretty much everything i could ask for in the way of material possessions... and at the risk of sounding ungreatful, im still not happy with my life because it feels like thiers a huge hole in me.

but thanks for your post... it made me feel a bit more optimistic.

-LK

shes in bed round 11 or so... and i didnt get off work till just awhile ago... unfortunatley

-LK

I don't think so.

You might be in for the most pleasant and joyful surprise of your life... do you want to waste the rest of it wondering what could have been?