I need to vent : I think I am just too nice of a person .

I just need to vent . If these words do not make sense , I am sorry I am just letting them come out as will . I just had a typical Monday . When I say typical Monday , I mean the ones where its so long and to add to it , it rains and poured all day . Last week was the best week that I had in a long time . I was smiling and happy and meds were working overtime . My weekend was great as well . Cut to today : bah Monday hambug . The work was slow today . I was the only person working behind the desk on my floor at the company that I work at . Normally there are 2 other people with me but they cut out - I should have went right along behind them . I had the option of going home like everyone else but I had to be nice and decide to stay . The next time time off is offered , I am going right back home . In fact , I am staying home tomorrow . I am staying in bed all day tomorrow . Why am I staying in bed ? Because my body feels week and my back hurts - I feel like I have the flu . I feel icky all over .

Why do I think that I am too nice of a person ? Because no matter how many times people hurt me , I don't want their blood on my hands and I just let God and Nature put Karma upon their paths ... but right now , I feel like taking a big stick and whipping the crap out of a certain person who broke my heart . I moved on , I moved on and this person does not like it that I am not crying over them - so since they don't like it that I am happy ? - They are talking about me behind my back , telling my secrets that I shared with only them . What did I do to deserve that ? I am a nice person - I never harm anyone - its hard for me to . But right now its taking all the might within me not to slash this bastard's tires . But then the good in me tells me not to do that because I still care about this person being able to go to work . Honestly I don't care - you know why ? Because I was just too good for this person . I am so tired of being hurt - damn I am . No matter what I do without knowing , someone wants to bring me down . Good in this world is so precious that no one wants to get to know the good and enjoy it , they want to bring it down . This world seriously sucks ...

I need some alcohol - someone please pure me a glass of red wine and cut on some music . Please ...

this person tells them about you. The fact that you are happy and have moved on is the best revenge you can have. And you are the better person.

...hope you don't mind if I give you a :hug:

Very best wishes. A lovely rant by the way, bravo! It's sad to see, and I never have had understood the need for vengeance, or the need to make others feel unhappy.When I feel like that, I just let it go, you and me both by the sounds of it.

Secrets? My advice is to try and live without them for a little while. If people give you even a suggest look, you do the old 'curious (and as innocent as a lamb) enquiry until they say something concrete' and when they do, you need something good to say. think ahead, people are more predictable than you think... if you just ask them "why are you insinuating this stuff? Why do you find torment amusing?" works about 30% of the time, but it's the best shot I can give you from here, the next best is for example, they heard you did something or other, and let you know... then just be proud of whatever it was, because even if it was wrong, you lived your life and made your mistakes. Don't be sorry for it at all!

For the hurt, here's a hug :hug: .

Enjoy your day off to-morrow!