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1) Detail, please, the problem you're having connecting your computer to your LAN. When you open a command prompt (click start menu, select "run", type cmd into the field provided and hit enter), and run ipconfig from the command line, what gets displayed? Is the output similar or different than what you see when you do the same thing on other computers on the LAN?
DU has many knowledgeable engineers on-hand - let's solve an easy one first.
2)Where are you, physically, geographically? City and state, please. There exist assistance avenues for people with mental illness, especially those receiving SSI, or supposed to.
Here I would recommend that obtaining your prescription for Paxil, as soon as possible, using whatever means necessary, be your top priority. If you should be receiving SSI, you should be able to get some emergency assistance in a medicaid type form. Again, if you can provide a city/state, that might help others here help you.
Following that, I would recommend jumping through as many of the bureaucratic hoops as necessary to receive your SSI or any other assistance you may be able to obtain. Spend entire days at your local Social Security office, ending each conversation with, "so what do I do now, right now, this minute?" - Then moving on to the next task. JUST GET THE CHECK, NOW. There exists a process. Find it, follow it, make it across the finish line. You can do this, and you are very likely to find some humane bureaucrat who can help you get it done.
Finally, with regard to your living situation and employment prospects, these might also have a substantial bearing on your geographical location. I would expect one to have a MUCH more difficult time making ends meet living in San Francisco than doing so in, say, Biloxi. It may be a harsh sentence or a tough move, but it is at least a chance, and if you can get by in a decent apartment, close to a decent school, on SSI income and student loans alone, then so be it, and so well be it.
3) It's hard, at your apparent age, to ignore the screaming demands of your flesh, however, the very best advice I can give would be that the ONLY productive time to seek a committed relationship with anyone else, is when you personally are reasonably confident that you have your own life in order. And, of course, the only way to successfully obtain one is to NOT look for it, and NOT care whether you succeed in finding it.
4) Regarding your credit and job hunt: Again, get the SSI ironed out. Everything else flows from there. Then, get a copy of your credit report from one of the "free credit report" places online - all credit bureaus report more or less the same thing. Any old collection items, just contact that creditor yourself, in writing, and see if they'll delete the item from your credit report if you pay them, or convert it to a current account if you get on a payment plan. Negotiate whatever settlement you can - I have a number of automatic drafts withdrawn every month, just slowly paying things down. DO NOT do "consumer credit counseling" - this HURTS your rating WAY more than just negotiating payment plans yourself. Anyway, this will not be fun or easy, nor quick, but it will work.
How this affects renting a place - again, this all depends on where you are, geographically, what the housing market's like, and finally, where you're willing to live in that housing market. Somewhere, there's something you can get, regardless of your credit rating.
How it affects a job hunt - for the jobs you're seeking, VERY little. Companies aren't going to pull credit reports for every entry level applicant. Someone in my line of work, sure. A cashier or stockperson? Not likely.
HOWEVER, this DOES NOT MEAN that your credit rating is not EXTREMELY IMPORTANT, and from experience I sincerely recommend that you clean up as much as you can, as quickly as you can. Eventually end up with one credit card, low apr, and never charge more than half of your credit limit to it. Pay the monthly like it was your religion to do so. You will thank yourself, someday.
Regarding your student loans in default - If I recall correctly, you should be able to immediately take them out of default immediately upon registering for full-time courseload, and immediately resume taking out guaranteed student loans, at will. Regardless, again, I'd recommend getting the SSI in order before you even think about this situation.
Finally, with regard to your philosophical question, on Hope.
A couple of weeks ago, we went to the city animal shelter. Cage after cage of dogs nobody wanted anymore. Precious little dogs. Heartbreaking. In the back of one cold, concrete cage, a little three-year-old collie, a girl, moping in the area behind their little sliding door. Sad, ignoring the old and worn toys some city employee had heartlessly tossed in with her, after someone had found her on the street. My wife clicks to her, gets her to come over. Sad little dog, shy. My wife talks to her. The little dog begins to wag its tail. Then smile. Then happy pant, paw the cage. Then bark, then bark bark. So we let it out to see us, and she likes us. Cuddles up and wags.
Turned out she has a bladder control problem. Incontinence. Nobody wants her, even though it's controlled by medicine. Too much trouble. Too many other dogs. That Thursday would be her last day on earth.
Tonight she sleeps on the floor next to my bed while I write this. She loves us. We're like her gods.
So yes, I believe in Hope. But hope without action is impotent.
May God bless and keep you.
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