It would be our ten-year anniversary tomorrow

If we had anniversaries anymore.

On our first, he bought me a "25th Anniversary" card with a sweet message inside about how we would only grow closer with each passing year.

I believed it, back then. But things happened...life happened, I guess.

Tonight he said Riley cried through dinner because he was sad about the anniversary-that-would-not-be. When Otter told Riley to think of the good times we'd had, he said, "That just makes me sadder." So much like me, I fear for that child. On the phone with Ry at bedtime, I cried along with him.

I wish--how I wish--the best was yet to come, for all of us. But bone-deep I know the good years, those sweet 90's years when we were an affluent young family, are gone forever. Leaving only the aching memory of What We Had For A While.

Tucker

BTW, it sounds like your ex misses you too