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I'm a nurse that works for a large, urban hospital in a somewhat specialized area. While I like what I'm doing, there's other floors within my specialty that I'd also be happy to move in. My problem for the past year has been my schedule. All my kids are in school, but the younger two are only 6 and 9, therefore they obviously can't be left unattended. I'm officially a "40 hour day/evening rotator" meaning I can pretty much be scheduled anytime between 7am and 11pm (I also work an occasional night shift). There's no way of anything being predictable long term (I often don't know my schedule until two weeks before) and this is just too hard (and too expensive daycare-wise with kids- we're having trouble saving anything and we desperately need a house instead of this dinky ass condo we're in!). Fortunately both my husband and ex-husband have been flexible and helpful, but I've needed something to change for awhile. I've spoken to my manager repeatedly about the possibility of different hours repeatedly and have been told what I'm looking for (3- 12 hour night shifts, 36hrs/week) will not a possibility anytime in the foreseeable future.
A position on another larger floor that is within my general specialty opened up Friday as an internal posting (the hours I want, plus every third weekend instead of every other). I spent yesterday filling out the required forms to transfer, as well as updating my resume, and those are sent (will arrive in HR Monday). I am very qualified and I anticipate a reasonably strong chance of getting the position. I'm already getting extremely nervous regarding how people will react. The floor I'm on is losing a part-time nurse, one full-timer's going on maternity (and rumored to not return full-time), and another full-timer is moving out of state. If I leave, it will be even harder. The thing is that many people will take it very personally and I don't look forward to the potential hostility (yes, I'm being a wuss). Since I also won't be leaving the hospital and these units are in the same division, I will occasionally be floating to this unit again even if I transfer.
I have to do what's best for both me and my family for the long term and I'm ok with that, but knowing my leaving will make a difficult situation a bit more difficult for everyone (I like most of the people I work with) is causing me a lot of guilt, stress, whatever. :banghead: I guess I'm mainly just venting (even though I know I'm fortunate to have options in this economy- I do work my ass off if that helps any).
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