The RetroLounge Daily Poem Thread (Tue 5/6/2008)

October 27, 1989


       And what did you want?
          To call myself beloved, to feel myself
          beloved on the earth.
               --Ray Carver


He was in a hotel in Baltimore
in a suburb near Johns Hopkins. He would

give a talk there, and they would pay him for it.
It was night, and he was alone; sirens were racing

up and down the streets. The room was very large.
Most of what he had wished as a boy was to write poems,

to have some power with the word, to be paid
for talking. Don't smile, please. He wanted

to be put in a beautiful room like this.
Bonnie would pick him up in an hour. He saw

out the picture window a few men in trenchcoats
walking toward the parking lot, and beyond that

headlights and taillights on a freeway a mile
or so away. He'd been reading Carver's last book

of poems, reading "Gravy" and the other valedictories.
He remembered Carver a few years before his death,

kidding about his prosperity, kneeling before his Mercedes
and waving a fistful of dollars, because he was so amazed,

he supposed, to have them, that good man, whose last poems,
written in the knowledge of imminent death, said

love the world, don't grieve overmuch, listen to people.
The beautiful room was a good place to read; he'd finished

the book (for the second time) at the pine desk, where
the indirect white light hurt his eyes. He didn't think

he'd ever be as famous as Carver, but who could tell?
He was sorry the man was dead; there was nothing

he could do about that, but he was sorry for it.
He got up to look out the picture window. He could

see the red spintops of some cops' cars. Other than that
nothing special: in the entrance courtyard a lone cabbie

smoked a cigarette; spotlights shone up through the yellow
foliage of a clump of maples. A few slow crickets.

He had everything he really wanted, he had learned
that friends, like love, couldn't save him.

Ed Ochester

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ED OCHESTER’s most recent book is The Land of Cockaigne (Story Line, 2001). Forthcoming is Unreconstructed: Poems Selected and New (Autumn House, 2007) and American Poetry Now (Pittsburgh, 2007), an anthology of contemporary American poetry. He edits the Pitt Poetry Series and the Drue Heinz Literature Prize, both from University of Pittsburgh Press, and co-edits the magazine 5 AM.


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:hi:

RL

Other than that
nothing special: in the entrance courtyard a lone cabbie

smoked a cigarette; spotlights shone up through the yellow

foliage of a clump of maples. A few slow crickets.

He had everything he really wanted, he had learned
that friends, like love, couldn't save him.

:hi:

RL

How poignant, how melancholy...

And how simply beautiful...

I really like the feelings in this one...

Thank you!

:hug:

:hug:

RL