Man, am I depressed.

This is a dark time for me, and although I have many good things--my youth, my health, considerable musical talent, two college degrees, and a working computer--I can't seem to make any of them translate into success or happiness this month. I'm disillusioned about the past, bitter about the present, and scared about the future. I suspect I'll eat and drink myself to death tonight, only to wake up tomorrow and start the process anew with nothing gained.

If I wasn't feeling so alone right now, I wouldn't be demanding attention from total strangers on the internet. But I am.

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Can you get any help from a real person? For me, the essence of depression is feeling lousy even if to an outsider things would look great.

They always do, it does take time, I have found that out, but in the end they all work out
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:hi:

It will pass, trust me. I've been there and when I was it seemed as tho it was going to last forever. Best thing to do is give someone else a hand--help out someone who feels like you do or worse. That always works.

My best to you.

i know what you mean

I have been there


and you all were here for me

so I will be here for you.....

just tell me what I need to do to help you
we do care.... really




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lost

I thought I posted in here, but I don't see it. See....aren't you glad you are young
instead of old and senile?! :crazy:

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including myself.

We are out here, and we hear you.

Treat yourself as good as you are able.

Times like this are temporary, and you will get through this.

I can guarantee you that many people are feeling your pain tonight...

We care about you.

I'm sorry you are feeling so low :hug:

And I really do - I spent many years in the deepest depths of depression and it was all I could do to get up every day (and some days I just didn't).

Please try to believe that the sun CAN shine again - it did for me - and that it will for you. Hard to believe at times but hang onto that because it's true. :hug:

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Hang in there, k? It gets better.

But I don't have considerable musical talent or two college degrees. :( :cry:

preferably a real person in the flesh. Call up an old friend. Call up a lot of old friends, the kinds who have seen you at your worst before and still accept you.

You're depressed, and being depressed is like walking along the bottom of a muddy sewer trench seven feet deep on an overcast day. All you can see is darkness and decay. You need someone who can pull you up over the top and let you see that there is still life and color in the world.

I've come to believe that depression is a sign that something is out of balance in our lives. When it happens, you need to figure out what is out of balance and what you can do about it. Don't say you can't do anything. That's your depression talking. That's why it's so important to talk to someone else, someone who can look at you objectively and tell you things that you yourself don't see.

very muddy deep pit, narrow enough to free climb but with so much mud there were no good handholds or foot holds. So you go two moves up and three moves back.And no rope. Oh yeah and your boots have so much mud on them they weigh about 7 pounds each.

depression IS a sign of out of balance. Those of us who have clinical depression requiring meds have a true chemical imbalance in our brains. I have to change meds every 3 years or so. A temporary depression is a sign of life out of balance due more to current life experience or external forces. Really Bad |
Stuff happens when external stuff compounds the existing clinical stuff.

Depression is also helped by physical activity, which ironically is often the last thing you want to do but even if you just go out and walk the mall for hours it can help. I hate being depressed but knowing I HAVE clinical depression keeps me aware that it IS sometimes the depression talking and this too will pass.

to our original poster, sorry for the hijack attempt and my deep and best wishes for this to resolve itself and you to get back on track pronto



we should go into practice together, Lydia.;)

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I'm feeling sick, so I can't drink tonight, but other than that, I'm right there with ya. x(

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This month is only this month. There are bad months.

There are times when much energy goes out, but little tangible results come back. This does not mean those results won't come back, just that they won't right now. Putting the right energy into the universe always comes back, but comes back on its own time schedule. Have patience, though it is hard. It will come back.

But the internet had not been popularized or accessible at the time. I can truly empathize, and I highly recommend you hang in there. You'll work through this. I have faith in you!

you get a good night's sleep most night. That means no drinking every night as this interfears with sleep. A sure sign of depression is insomnia so look out for that.

when you drink while already in a low point.
Sleep really does help: normal healthy restful sleep
exercise helps

Just remind yourself that this will pass, and if nothing else, try to direct your funk into your music. It's generally what I do - try to exorcize my demons, so to speak.

Good luck and don't forget the value of talking with friends, old or new, and getting things off your chest.

That's what I'm going to do - you're invited.

remember a sword is made stronger by tempering (which is a harsh process) and it's the same with people.

What you need to do is break down your problems and goals into a manageable pieces. Then you can take them one by one and make a plan to deal with them or achieve them.

Good luck!

been said by total strangers on the internet. I thought I would regret having a blog. I do not.

Feel better.

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things in life you list, it can be really tough sometimes to keep a positive attitude and look forward.
Please don't hesitate to seek some help if this continues; sometimes depression is situational, and passes with time, and other times it can be chronic and help IS available.
And even though we are total strangers on the internet, it's amazing how much genuine love and support one can find in forums like this! I don't know any other DUer personally (other than my daughter) but I honestly feel a fondness for many with whom I've communicated, and who have lifted ME up in times of sorrow or angst or ennui. I hope you may find that same kind of connection.
:hug: There are many people here who truly give a shit...let us know how you're doing, OK??

depression is a serious condition that requires treatment.

Don't let it get you down. As for the future, who knows what it will bring? Both wonderful things and bad things. But it's exciting.. making you see what the next day will bring.

Trite, but true.

Khash.

I am pissing away a talent at writing.)

I'm sorry things are feeling so terrible right now. I wish I knew what to tell you to get you through this, but the eating thing is how I cope too. Unfortunately I have coped myself up to a massive size these days. :hug:

All to well.

I'm on the brink and hanging by my toenails.

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Do you have anything online that I could check out?

and walks of life and education and jobs and whatever. It will pass. It's political... and it does pass. I lived through Johnson, Nixon..(WaterGate), Ford and downsizing and outsourcing and all kinds of crap. Hubby and me made it through all. Just figure...it doesn't last forever...and these last years of Bush II are so dark...it makes all of us at times feeling like it's just to hard.

It will pass. Not that these times aren't dark and that one can't help but feel very down...but, there are some really good things going on for change that you might not see now...and it will take work to make more light from this darkness...but it will come. If I didn't believe that from experience...I wouldn't pass it along...either! :hi: All we have is our future..!

> Dad