OK first some background: I was baptized Catholic but don't really have any connection to the church, even culturally. My parents are actually a mixed Catholic/Lutheran couple (very common in this part of the world), and my extended family is closer to 1/4 Catholic than 1/2 Catholic since I know that about half on my mom's side aren't practicing or even nominal members anymore. My dad the Lutheran isn't very religious or much of a churchgoer at all, hence why me and my brothers ended up in the Catholic Church, but my mom still took us to Lutheran churches growing up a bunch too, and after I was confirmed I probably went to more Lutheran services than Catholic ones somewhat ironically, since these were my teen years and more formative I see myself more as a cultural Lutheran. Lately my mom has admitted to me that even she herself goes to the Lutheran church more than the Catholic one (largely because it's closer and has a more convenient schedule), which shows her opinions on the matter. So the Catholic church means nothing to me. I say that in a positive way since up until very recently I was one of those stereotypically bitter types with a lot of anger, but lately I've managed to release most of that, and without getting into detail the person who helped me the most with that is actually a sex worker who advertises her services in the back of "alternative" weeklies, really goes to show how God can work through the most unexpected people!
After I graduated high school and left the house I basically decided that I was still a Christian but didn't need to go to church, so I didn't unless I was visiting family (It says a lot to my mom's open-mindedness that she agreed to respect my wishes to never attend Catholic services, even though this often meant things like going to Catholic midnight mass before Christmas with me and the rest of the family on Christmas instead of just getting us all to go to the midnight mass) That's the attitude I took until fairly recently when I decided that while I wasn't going to become a regular churchgoer, it did have a sense of community that I wanted to be a part of. Since I identify as a cultural Lutheran, a Lutheran church would make most sense, but honestly I find the Catholic-esque Lutheran services to be pretty boring often. I hate to admit it, but I largely agree with that little girl in Jesus Camp who was mocking how Catholics and mainline Christians just recite things like "We worship you o Lord" without passion at their services instead of getting into and intense like the Pentecostals do. I mean considering I love going to see bands like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgL7Fh6ZjnI (I was actually at that show, though you can't see me in the video!) and seeing how much passion kids put into that, it seems like there should be a little more passion honoring God. I think the site for an emergent group I found once said it best when they said "Don't feel committed to go to any church that you find boring, as its bearing false witness. God isn't boring and we are not boring, so why should our worship be boring?" So I've realized I actually prefer the evangelical style of worship, which is part of my dilemma.
Sporadically having gone to a few churches over the past couple years, I've found one which on paper would be ideal for me. It has a youthful congregation (was started by a bunch of 20somethings about 5 years ago, the main pastor is still only 33), very casual, no one dresses up, plenty come in T-shirts and jeans, their website mentions a commitment to social justice and they make a point of how the lobby serves "fair trade" coffee, the services are interesting, no boring organ music, mindless recitation of Bible verses or meaningless sit, stand, kneel rituals, sermon topics aren't condemning, mostly feel good topics like "Loving others as God loves you" and for one example, while the pre-2008 election sermon's topic was Jesus and Politics in the world today, the pastor refused to endorse sides, mentioned that he has friends on both sides of the spectrum and said that while he definitely had a favorite in that election we weren't going to find out who it was (and made a joke about how he had to make sure to wear a gray shirt today and avoid his red or blue shirts to not give what might seem like a coded message.), so they aren't trying to politicize religion for the left either which strikes me as just as tacky as the religious right.
So what's the issue? They're affiliated with an evangelical "denomination" which is closer to a loose affiliation of churches, but as I understand is often VERY conservative in less progressive areas unlike mine. They're also a "charismatic"/Pentecostal group, and while as stated above I admire a lot about their style of worship, these people have been known for some crazy things, speaking in tongues type craziness to the point where they've even been condemned by other evangelical leaders (look up the "Toronto Blessing"). Nothing of that matter happens here, just the kids waving their arms and swaying sort of thing, but it's a little discouraging. I've seen other forums warn people about other churches of this group as basically being cults and to tell involved family members to get out now. Now I know that it's not like that HERE, but I'm thinking it's like having a Republican candidate who might seem like a good person and is fairly liberal on the issues, but they're still a Republican and thus you just can't vote for them. I should note that this church is so detached from that conservative theology that their site has a listing of social groups started by church members which include a beer-tasting and Texas Hold 'Em night groups, even though most Pentecostals considering all alcohol consumption and gambling to be a sin. But the issue is still there.
Then there's also the fact that I feel like a bit of a hypocrite condemning my mother for affiliation with the Catholic church for their views that I found abhorrent, and for which she mostly didn't disagree with me on, but simply felt like it was OK to remain involved despite deep disagreements. This sort of started our rift. But I can easily see her privately complaining about my hypocrisy if I told her I got involved with a sort of Pentecostal church. But honestly, I'd rather just not go than go to Catholic-esque services, even in a more progressive denomination. So I'm wondering if I should forget this place and just look for a more mainstream denomination with a similar style (and I have no doubt one exists where I live, I live in a big liberal city full of progressive churches. There isn't much you CAN'T find here.)
And yeah, you can see how long and rambling it was, warned in the subject. I thank you if you read the whole thing. But thoughts?