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Luckily, this is not a problem for me at this time because I'm very happily married. However, I have a problem that I'd like to try to understand. I'm in my mid-40s, and I've had three romantic relationships. Each of the first 2 lasted 9-1/2 years. It seems that once I'm in a relationship, I can't get out because I'm afraid to hurt the other person. In both of these relationships, I pretty much knew a year or two into the relationship that it wasn't really what I wanted, but I was stuck because of my over-sensitivity. A part of it is that I just don't want what I would think would be bad karma for causing so much pain to the other person. However, I also felt as though my heart would break -- I just couldn't bear inflicting something like this on someone that I loved (but was not "in love" with).
I know that I wasn't being true to myself by staying in these relationships, but I consciously made the decision to stay to avoid traumatizing someone else. Has anyone else been in this situation? I have to admit that I'm extremely empathic. Is there no hope for me? I hope that it's a moot point for the rest of this lifetime given my current happy relationship. However, I don't want to continue this pattern into my future lives as well.
Any thoughts?
Thanks for any light that you can shine on this dilemma.
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