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http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=245x31644The check did not come today, despite the very strong feeling I had that it would. So, I don't know what is going to happen with the account on which I was supposed to pay that bill. I'm feeling a little shell-shocked right now, and wondering why the check did not come today. Maybe there was something in me blocking it, even though I was doing what I felt were positive affirmations and visualizations. Maybe there is something else going on. I'm not sure.
The person who is handling this account has been wonderful, but what happens now may be beyond her control. I'm not sure myself what will happen. I am still visualizing the check getting here, and that things will not get bad.
Overall, I'm in a very weird spot in my life. I have for the longest time had money (not tons, but making a pretty good living, paid my bills, etc.). Now I find myself in a place where I don't have any money right now, though some is coming my way. I am having to ask my husband for money, and that's not something I've had to do before. I always made more money than him, but when I paid for vacations, household things, etc., I never saw it as MY money buying things, but rather, that I was able to do so, so I did. Now I find myself in the humbling position of not being able to do that. Is the Universe trying to show me something? Teach me something? There are other things that I feel I have no control over either, and again, I ask myself if there is something that the Universe is trying to tell me, show me, or clobber me over the head about. I'm not sure.
I have always been something of a control freak, because my life growing up was so often out of control. So, I think I will need to take some periods of quiet time over the next few day, see what message or messages the Universe is trying to show me.
In the meantime, I want to thank those of you who responded to my request for good vibes regarding the check. You guys are so giving and so caring, and I appreciate it more than I can say.