One day came without warning A perfectly innocent day full of promise and sunlight against office windows Harsh reality stood behind large glass doors hiding like a thief in the shadows There were no stop signs No haunting Hollywood music to make the moment seem predictable. No safety net for me to fall back into against the glare of neon. I was a willing player with faith wrapped around me like a cloak of armor.
And the dance began
The whispered diagnoses was like a scream ricocheting in my mind This cannot be….I am 35 years old Doesn’t that count for something? “Where are the brownie points?” I thought to myself as I sat on cold paper covered vinyl clutching my husbands hand because it was the only link to home in this now hostile territory. The doctor’s office with pastel colored flower paintings suddenly became winter and I had my back to the winter gale.
I sat with a smile frozen to my lips and tears running down my face Where was the safety of the car? Where was the safety of my youth? Where were the safe spots so we couldn’t play tag with my life? Now I was “it”. One day had come to my window to roost Can I draw the curtains?
One day I had thought to myself when I was younger One day I will climb snow covered peaks One day I will learn to play the guitar and sing like an angel One day I will become a mother and raise my children in a home full of love One day will make the dreams I have a possibility One day… Isn’t there always time?
Knock, Knock One day is at the door…Its for you!
So I went home and shed tears over a lost reality and laughed in the face of a new one. My new friend one day stood outside patiently waiting for me to embrace it Waiting for me to open the door and invite them in I wasn’t so sure this was the dinner guest that I had planned on entertaining through the years of my life But there it was.
Like a slow rain falling…
I realized as time passed and the whispers of my diagnoses silenced themselves That the dreams I had were always there The dance of life had always been played out before me I had just chosen to fill up my dance card with the rigors of daily life The little things that drive us to forget that our “one day” is not something that is convenient It’s not something that we do not fight for It’s not something to be taken for granted
Embrace the tomorrow that you think may never come Make it happen today Don’t let it go Don’t let it falter Don’t let it slip
Because one day we will all look our own mortality in the face It will also be at your window like a new dawn And when the rays of the new dawn hit your face may you always see that you do have the time to make it happen right now Dance with your fears and embrace the things that have always eluded you
Take the time to see who you are underneath the white noise of daily life Take the time to love like you never have before Take the time to play when you don’t feel like you have anything left and if you do these things you can let the elusive “one day” into your life and simply ask How do you like your tea?
Christi 9/2006 A.K.A. AutumnMist
Note: My wife found this tonight and she asked me to post it for her. She really just wanted to send a message of hope and laughter for those that are facing difficult times right now. Be easy on her. :) She is a sweet woman.
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